fake or real?

a rare occasion...

due to the given circumstances, I got stuck here...meaning this year, I could not get home to celebrate Christmas with my beloved family.

to be honest, I am not a Christmas fan... it is always lovely to spend some days within the family...  give and get presents...

but hang on... why do we need Christmas to once spend some time with the people we should care about the most?

why do we spend a huge amount of money on Christmas presents while somewhere else people are starving?

I had to get some things in the city yesterday... it was snowing and fuckin damn cold and it was just some hours before Christmas Eve and while most of those people were getting the last Christmas presents, just as myself....

there were also those street people sitting on the floor... and seeing this broke my heart...
where would they go on Christmas Eve?

I hate the fact that Christmas is only a big party for those who live in prosperity...

also...for the lonely ones among us...those with the broken-hearts and souls, for those without somewhere to go...
I guess, it might be one of the worst days...

Yesterday, when it was still snowing... an old granny and and old grandpa were shovelling the snow away... on Christas Eve that is to point out...

it must have been really tiring for them, they might have been about eighty, I guess... and it broke my heart again... and I was close to ask them whether I should do the job they were doing so thoroughly...

but then I came to think... that they did want to do it themselves...nobody would have forced them to do it...

and then I thought...at least they have each other... it would have been so sad if just one of them would have been doing it... but hey, they still have each other and even though it is possible they do not have any other family...they have each other...
and coming to think of that.... put a big smile on my face... just like now.

still here. goodnight.

Welcome home...

my new baby, ursprünglich hochgeladen von kyungek

I finally got my baby today... it was love at first sight.
So, welcome home... from now on...it'll be the two of us...
so good to know to have 'someone' waiting at home...

since it is your first night here, I am gonna stay with you overnight...

I might not be able to sleep though...
cos I cannot take your eyes off of you.

Dear Christa,
thank you so much. I am gonna take good care of your baby.
1luv!

I wanna...

thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you



...and again

thank you.

Big Love, ka


수진아...사랑해
경아언니가

what the fuck...

do we complain about?
life is too short to waste our precious
time to play around...
to pity ourselves
to always look back
get stuck by our own heads

we ain't got any real problems
we are healthy
got jobs
got family
and friends
a place to stay
lucky us

but what do we do?
seems like
every day
we tend to
find some new excuses
to not be able to
get our fuckin guard
together
to finally get up
and give it our all!!!

and even if everything
is just awsome really
exciting
challenging....
apparantly exactly
what we want
and need
we look back
cos
we cannot
believe
it is all so good
or else
become scared
cos we fear the pain
in advance
we will possibly
face
when
it won't be no
good anymore...

it must be a human thing
to be like that
ungrateful
fickle
so unable to
cope with oneself


so good
to know
it's just one part of us

the other part
full of hope
confidence
staying power
is the one
getting up
again and again
no matter how
hard it hits us

I decided to stick to that one...
and I am not gonna let me get me
cos life is what we make it!

One love!